I’ve safe and sound in the Bay Area and very happy to be back. The trip across the US was great in part due to having a rideshare with a very solid and healthy kid named Jonathan who had just graduated from Hampshire College. It was his first Burning Man. Burning Man was really amazing and better then 2000 by a long shot. I was part of a very organized camp of 70 folks who put on a well known event. We had showers, fresh healthy meals and lots of work. I also volunteered for the Black Rock Gazette and got two stories printed. I’m in San Francisco now and loving it. The city seems uncrowded and healthier then when I left in 1997. I’m loving the humidity and trees after the desert for a week.
Grand Monadnock Mountain
The bald rocky top of Monadnock Mountain has been flitting in and out of my field of view since I arrived in Keene, NH. It’s about 3000 ft. and has an unusually bear rocky top which should by all rights be covered in trees. I was curious about that but in the often typical understated manner of New Englanders, I’d only ever heard snipits of info around town such as, “good climb” and that it had “a pretty good view, depending on the weatha.” I didn’t know it was in contention for the most climbed mountain in the world with 125,000 people going up each year. Seems that bare rocky top is very attractive and a perfectly challenging day hike.
So I climbed it last Sunday and took some pictures (it was a harrowing solo assent due to buddies being called into work.) I took the less popular Marlboro Trail which is about 2 miles long and took about two hours up. At times it’s quite steep, but no need for ropes and kids to stout grandparents were on the trail. It was a hot and overcast day with thunder boomers milling about the state watering things.
Arriving at the balded top was like entering a bit of a party. Lots of people milling about, including a ranger who was fielding questions, the most popular being “will it rain?”
“Storms are down south,” was all he said (It started pouring right as I reached my car on the way down and it was then that I realized he hadn’t said it wasn’t going to rain.) Talking to the ranger more revealed that Monadnock is quiet the little mountain!
First of all there’s not trees at the top because it seems that back in the late 1800s the wolves and bears who lived up messed with the wrong local farmers. The farmers got angry lit the entire top of the mountain on fire and just cleared it to the rocks. It’s coming back slowly they say.
It also happens to be generally considered the second most climbed mountain the world after Mt. Fuji. Or the first if you want to debate some folks on technicalities. The ranger said some folks out in “Califonia’ would say Mt. Whitney was, “but they’d be wrong.”
And the name Monadnock, an old Abnacki Indian name has been revitalized by the mountain and kept in the English lexicon (Definition) to mean any lone mountain rising above a plain.
I just came back from my first 4th of July in the small NH town where my Grandmother lives. I was always busy during summers and never visited her in the summer until now. Surreal? Yes. Real? Also yes.
Just a gaggle of white families a breedin’ in the country. Horses, working canons, bells by Paul Revere, lawn mower tractor pullin’. The best moment was when we were eating BBQ chicken in a mess hall and started talking to a young couple with a 1 year old. The mother had a “Martha’s Vineyard” shirt on. My grandmother saw it and said,
“I was there as a kid during a flu outbreak for months while it passed here in town. We were neighbors with the Indian tribe out there and our family station wagon was the first real car they had ever scene!” We figured that was about 1918 she was 7 or so.
Is it true? We’ll never know. My uncle Binny (short for Winfield in these here parts) was the keynote speaker at the tiny fairgrounds, as his grandfather was once before. Of course time changes things as my uncle is a composer, Buddhist, and paraplegic and my great grandfather was a gun collecting shoe salesman. Bin did a great re-telling of the constituional convention, focusing on New Hampshire’s role. They were 9 weeks late because the state treasury had no money and nobody wanted to pay for them to go.
Bin’s best line, “nothing’s changed much here, we still don’t like paying anything to the government. Maybe our motto should be “Live free, or die trying.”
It’s changing fast for everyone else too. Houses 200K and up. Locals being priced out. Commuting yuppies coming upstate to spawn. Same in Kennebunkport, ME. Folks I know are moving out of town and renting their 3bd/2ba houses by the week for $1600 and they’re two miles from the beach in rough woods.
Road Report. Cross Country
Comfort Inn. Pittsburg, PA.
Sun. Dec. 14th, 2003.
(Rough draft, brushed up draft on blog in a few days)
Just got into the hotel room (the first with Net access) after belting back a few drinks with a fella I met at the bar down the street from my roadside hotel off the 79 in Pittsburg PA. Lets call him Joe. Talking to Joe left me feeling like a career politician might feel if kidnapped from their bubble and placed in a working class bar in some random town. It was a stunningly educational, occasionally frightening, and ultimately hopeful, conversation. Skip to the end of this post if you want to read about that.
It feels strange to type after 5 days away from the computer…very strange, but its coming back quick. It does not feel strange to sit though; I’ve been sitting for 12 hours a day in my little car for the past 5 days. I’ve been on the road now since Wednesday when I left sunny San Diego headed for New Hampshire. I drive during the day, taking lots of short breaks.
A note about truckers before I go any further down this road. What a crazy ass numbing job truckin’ must be! But they keep America humming and they are your best friends on long trips, if you are observant you learn the language of the road, and it’s all trucker-eze. If trucks are going slow, go slow. If they are going fast, go fast, because they know where the cops are and the coming road conditions and weather. Follow tucks around cities, not through them. Be suspicious of highways with few trucks. Stop at rest areas where there are a lot of trucks and take a short nap like they do to keep your eyes sharp. Don’t tailgate them ever, and don’t pass them on curves if you can help it. Never pass slowly, lounging in their blind spot. And always, always, always give them the right of way. If you do this, they will take care of you on desolate desert freeways, dark snowy tree lined highways. If was the president I’d fund trucker yoga classes though, because judging from my back and kidneys, life on the road is brutal to the body, and after 12 hours of driving, the last thing you want to do is work out.
I headed out on the 15 North to the 40 West, passing through the song, “Kingman, Barstow, San Bernardino,” except in reverse. I pushed hard to get to my mother’s house in Santa Fe, driving 970 miles in one day. It’s sort of a blur of gas stations since I had to get a roof rack and load it up, thus taking the gas mileage in my ’95 Subaru Impreza 5 door station wagon down to about 20MPG. It’s a very sure footed AWD car though, especially loaded down and with the bigger engine. Highly recommended machine.
Before I left I bought a video and still cameras, justifying it because I’m going to be teaching media literacy at a school. I’ve decided to take a little video every 100 miles and make a 15 minute short – should be interesting.
Thursday I left at 2pm and headed down to the 40. There was a storm coming across the country that I was trying to stay ahead of, but I slept late and had a good breakfast with my mother and visited with my stepfather and then my aunt and uncle came down and they all had to help me unload and repack my car. That was comical, each one making sure I had food, water, maps, etc., as if it was my first drive after getting my license. Driving away I regretted teasing them, especially my mother, for being so caring. One should not scorn love, even if it is totally ridiculous. I called from the road and said as much and felt better.
After a beautiful secondary road to the boring but excellent rt. 40 the storm caught me. A couple of hours outside of Amarillo Texas the bridges started freezing in the rain. I went by 12 accidents, one of which happened in front me. An SUV just started drifting on a bridge, slammed into one guard rail, then all the way over to the other one and stopped. I pulled over and getting out of the car couldn’t even stand on the side of the road ’cause it was solid black ice. He was fine and the cops arrived in minutes, probably called by truckers.
The next morning it was still raining when I work up in the little Travelodge and hit the road by 8:30am, a little late due to the time change escaping my attention. The weather channel and I conferred and I stayed on the 40 to keep it raining instead of snowing. I really, really, wanted to go north because I live the scenery and being raised in Maine I get irrationally nervous in formerly confederate states. It didn’t help that one of my books on tape was Don’t Know Much About
American History. I listened to that in the mornings, and the Iliad in the afternoons when I was spacey. I followed the rain all day.
By Ft. Smith Arkansas I stopped again. The next morning it had snowed a couple of inches, just like Amarillo. After Little Rock I consulted the weather gods, called a friend who got on the weather.com, plotted, planned and strategized. I could go north, letting the storm continue East at about 50mph, then follow it into the North East where it was heading to dump all kinds of snow. This would keep me on the North side of the Appalachians. Or I could continue in the warm south along the 40 to the ocean. But the storm was forecast to ice up the 40 around Appalachian pass, but if I could make it to the 95 and run up the Eastern seaboard behind it. The problem with that was the big city traffic and of course I wanted to go north. I finally decided to make a dash North at Memphis up the 55 to the 57, to the 64 North. It worked and although it rained and snowed lightly most of the way, the roads were mostly good. In Evansville Illinois I stopped for the night after a harrowing last hour driving in snow at night. By this time the truck stops were filling with bad coffee and piles of fried everything as their main fair.
The 64 was a serene country highway that I took to the 71 and up on to Cincinnati. Still snowing lightly, but with good roads, I called another friend for a weather.com consultation. We elected to stay south of the Great lakes, but north of the mountains, which meant the 70 through Columbus to Pittsburg where I am now. I’ll make NH tomorrow, weather willing.
So back to Joe.
Joe is 32, single, with a 14-year-old daughter he loves to death. I’m going to relay his story and thoughts, as they were very illuminating to me. I am not endorsing his opinions mind you.
Joe pays his child support willingly and is devoted to his daughter completely. He thinks he’ll not get married due to his parents’ savage divorce that left them both poor and angry. He’s a carpenter in a big union and is training to build bridge molds in Pittsburg. He’s from a small town in Pennsylvania where he owns 35acres he bought with his own money so he could someday build a house on give to his daughter when he dies, “She could sell it, live in it, I don’t care, just so she’s got somethin’” he told me. She wants to be an Ocean oceanographer and he totally supports her. He has interesting times going to football games where she cheerleads, because sometimes her school plays his old school where he played football. He was in the military for a few years and worked in factories.
Joe’s political thoughts were surprisingly shaded grays.
We established that there is a triad of top priorities for him.
1. Family values.
He’s dismayed at the condition of families and that schools are having to parent, “The world’s changing and we’re not keeping up with how to keep strong family values.” He’s sort of pro life because abortions will happen anyway so they might as well be safe. He worked since he was 12, he was “disciplined” which he was adamant was never “abuse” and he was troubled that we’ve forgotten that there is a difference. He got in fights outside of school, but never one’s that were really really serious and they helped him vent, which is missing now, he said. His high school coach smacked him around when he was out of line. He is pro-Bush due to his family values. We didn’t get into gay parenting, but he said, “Hey, I judge on character. Some gay guy hits on me and I’ll kill him, but otherwise I don’t care. Same with blacks and others. Live and let live, judge on actions.” I told him I lived in a gay area and went to gay bars with girls sometimes to dance and got hit on, “Oh, well that’s different, it’s their turf.” We agreed that their you have to expect to get hit on at a gay bar. He said he had no inherent problems with different folks and we agreed that assholes come in all flavors. He supports women working and would love to stay at home with his daughter if he found a rich one to marry, not that he’s going to get married again. But he’s also confused about how to keep good family values and raise kids well in this new world.
2. Economy. He was anti-Bush due to Bush’s position on union wages and overtime. He was very proud that his union president had refused a meeting at Bush’s ranch on these grounds. Unions may have problems with some dead wood, but they were needed and he was a union man. We talked about how he’s in the middle of family values and unions, democrat and republican. About how we need health care and good jobs. About how he wants a politicians to talk plainly and come from poor backgrounds so they can relate to common folks.
We have to be able to keep our guns so nobody can attack our country. This was not negotiable. Violence in our country was more due to lack of education, money, opportunities, culture, and then guns. We talked about Iraq. He wanted us out, saying the war games he played while in the military were bad enough, the real thing must be horrible. We agreed it was a rats nest, but Joe was mystified why we didn’t bomb the piss out of the busses of terrorists we saw coming into the country from other countries.
We talked about slavery. He had great grandfather, or some such old relative, who told him that when he and his family were hungry in the winter because their farm was not producing enough food or money, the slaves were eating on the plantations because they were kept healthy for work. He said, hushed, that it wasn’t all beatings and abuse. His opinion was that slaves were given freedom to fast to let everybody adjust in a healthy way. We agreed we were left with a terrible legacy of bad social psychology, being a country founded on freedom but having had slaves. We also agreed that the American Indian thing was a big mess and wished some politician would tackle that problem.
And we talked about truckers and the silent rules of the road. On this we were in perfect agreement. We parted and wished each other well crusin’ safely on the coattails of the kings of the road.
7th Ave. and Lincoln Place, Brooklyn NYC, Dec. 2nd 2003.
Caleb John Clark.
Foreboding gray clouds rolled over the sun outside the Brooklyn NY cafe I was sitting in. It was too cold to rain, even at 11am. A chill ran through me as I remembered last night’s walks on Manhattan streets, my windbreaker failing to break much wind. These clouds were not to be relished, my San Diego baked mind told me. More of a bracing attitude might be in order, a hunkering down as it were. Then, if snow flurries were to appear, I’d think about shovel and snow tire condition.
Someone behind me in the cafe suddenly screamed, “Snow!” at the next table. I watched as a gaggle of happy college women ran out from the cafe into the street to see fresh flurries coming down. “Lets sing Christmas carols!” one shouted. I was shocked and amazed. Had I forgotten the joy of the changing seasons? Of the first snows? It seems I had.
I thought back to how I felt when I recently prairie dog emerged from a deep train tunnel into Grand Central Station that weekend. Walking into the building my eyes were dragged up to the famous round ceiling where a Christmas laser light show was being projected. Holiday icons and cute ditties sprang around the old star constellations as happy music played. A feeling of sappy holiday joy overcame me. It was really impossible to stop. New York City for the holidays! I thought. Bundled families walking down streets with lit wreaths on old light polls. Hoards of people with shopping bags on the subway. Warm coffee in cops hands as they help tourists find stores with gleaming windows full of the treasures of the entire world. What a gas!
Someone bumped into me and I realized that I was standing still in a seething mass of humanity. I found a wall to lean against to gather my wits and watch the show. Every sort of person one could imagine walked by me all at once. Some with travel bags, begging bags, dark bags under pale eyes, shopping bags from stores with famous names, bags of food, visible personal baggage, bums with layers and layers of baggy clothes, bags of food, kids with happy bags of toys. And people looked differently then in warming weather. Perhaps it’s that here your fashion and grooming has to survive coats, good shoes, and winter hats. This makes it hard to have complex hair things going on, or precise outfits. People tend to have short hair that can fall into place after a wool hat, or long hair pulled back. There are a lot of thick black and gray wool Navy coats, scarves, and thin black leather gloves to help with the 30-50 degree drop in temperature between inside and outside.
Someone walked into the cafe behind me singing “Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow,” bringing me back to the here and now. Turning, I could see snow melted into water droplets on the shoulders of their wool coat. Looking out the cafe window at the college women reveling in the light snow, I remembered why I have no bad memories of the weather while growing up in Maine. I was young and it was fun. Older now, I still felt their excitement about the little snow flakes wafting down. The flakes were signs that the next act in North East weather variety show was coming. These flurries were a slow transitional dissolve from the cold-frosty-rainy-gray-with-some-really-spectacular-days, changing to all-water-is-frozen-with-some-really-bright-sunny-days. “Oh, it’s snowing a lot!” someone else said. “I feel like taking off my coat and running outside.” Another voice chimed in with a laugh, “I feel like going to Hawaii.” Suddenly the snow picked up, followed by the wind.
Looking outside, the flurries had stopped and sun could be seen cresting over a thick low cloud for a few minutes. Then the flurries returned and the sunlight was blotted out as winter literally bored down on fall. It got darker. The women left for class. A snow squall ripped snowflakes one-way on the street, and the opposite way three stories up. Red brick backgrounds showed off the bigger and bigger snowflakes. Flurries no more, parked cars started developing white roofs and white racing stripes along their door tops. The flakes disappeared slower when they hit the cooling sidewalks. It looked mean now, dangerous to anyone unprepared.
“How are you?” someone said as a person entered the cafe behind me.
“Snowy and you?”
“I’m thrilled that it’s snowing.”
“Really, go outside for minute,” they answered stoically.
Then the wind mellowed and the snow fell in a nicer, calmer manner. It was brighter. A kid ran by smiling in only a long sleeve shirt. Two old people hobbled by in black wool over coats with snow on their shoulders. Snow highlighted the top edge of leafless trees on the street and covered the top of awnings. People sitting at the cafe’s window bar sipped hot drinks and stared at the show. A person next to me made a cell call, “Hi, I just wanted to tell you that it’s snowing,” they said and hung up. Sheets of snow appeared up high and across the street, just like your read about. They look like sheets being shaken out really, because they move like a flock of birds all turning at the same time, sometimes actually going up and sideways. Closer to the cafe window, flakes fall slower for a minute, when whip by. Vines on buildings become white lines. A round window on a van went by with a crescent moon of snow in it.
In sunny San Diego it’s easy to forget that weather can be excellent entertainment and that not all weather besides sunny and 70 is depressing. Frozen water falling through cold gray skies can in fact be uplifting and dramatic. If these fine folks can survive through February I thought, and then navigate the mud and wet of the winter thaw, they’ll live to frolic in the spring and summer sun.
Looking up I saw that they snow storm had let up a little and things had brightened. Then flurries were all that was left, back were we started. Then sunlight started pushing through the thin part of clouds, and pushed all the clouds away. I walked to the subway amid wet sidewalks and snow on piles of leaves thinking that I’d just seen a movie trailer of the coming show.
All OK here in Hillcrest, but this is one serious fire situation in San Diego. Here’s some pics I took
Just got back from a trip back east during beautiful September. Here’s the pics
I’m back from a week of natural living and African drumming and dancing at Esalen.com. Now the work search begines in earnest.
I was back east for xmas. It snowed 8 inches of perfect powder on xmas afternoon and night. It was the kind of power that you could whisk away with your hand, even from a car window. The sun came out the next day and revealed the animal tracks from that early morning’s traffic, a rare record of the life and times of the woods.
|SXSW 2002 Conference Report:
Caleb John Clark. March 9th-13th, 2002. Austin Texas.Saturday, March 9th.
I wake up thinking as I lounge in bed, maybe Ill go Sunday instead? Id still make my panel, but I could stay longer in my flannel.
And I come up with several other good reasons. One, a Santa Ana, AKA devil wind from the East that sucks all the water out of the air is blowing in an airborn stealth army of insidious plant dust units into my body. It gives me allergies in the form of a dry cough and a mind bogged down in snot. I didnt have these back East. I was sick at the beginning of Sundance, so maybe its a sign I shouldnt travel. Oyi, do I have Woodyallanitis?
Also, its always challenging to go to these without a travel partner, even if you know folks there. Lonely visions of hotel rooms and TVs slide show by, followed by bar squatting and card swapping with other solos and then long walks through the wilderness of a strange city to a nameless plastic seat in a windowless conference room, followed by rejection of all sexual feelers and plastic bedding with no weight as you sleep on the side of a bed fit for three.
Surfing to the special events page on the SXSW site changes my mind. Ive heard from friends that this is a great small Web conference that has more healthy networking and sharing then most. The party blurbs seem to confirm this. There are readings, and EFF gatherings and a Fray story reading night, and words like DJ Club coffee house free gourmet munchies Open bar while it lasts literary erotica and tribe. And there are excellent panels during the day too. Blogs, IP, and gamers seem hot this year.
Ahhh the tribe. Web before suits. Wired before Conden Nast. Burning man. Take me back, country node. Cyber-fi! Fellow vets <!>
I found a conference warm up essay by Bruce Sterling that changes my perception of SXSW to one of a gathering of with a foundation of Web heads driven by passion and art with the Web as their medium.
A delay becomes a very bad idea. Id miss the opening party, the tribal kick off, and theres plenty of people there I know so I wont be lonely at all! I pack extra light and hit the road for a 6ish arrival in Austin right when the party starts.
A note about packing. Im gone 4 days and I want to fit everything in one bag so I can go carryon. This, like most travel, forces one to ask themselves what do you really need? This depends on your gall. Thus it becomes a question of what tools do I need to achieve my goal. The goal this time is not to stink. Not to wear the same exact close every day. Have a laptop and reading material. The first question for space savings is, can you wear the same shoes and pants for four days? People dont really look at shoes and pants as close as shirts anyway, so if you wear clean jeans, yes. Next, do you mind washing underwear and socks in the shower? If yes, more space and you can have one pair drying while youre wearing the other. Next. How much can you wear on the plane? The more you can wear, the less you pack. The last, and crucial, question is, can you buy anything you may need there? This is important because you can in fact buy chinos in most major cities in case you have to have a fancy dinner. You can also buy shirts. And the cool thing about buying clothes in other cities is that you can get stuff your friends back home dont have access too. I end up with one backpack with a laptop sheath containing one G4 PowerBook, 5 print outs, three shirts, two socks/underwear, three T-shirts, a tooth brush, razor, condoms, etc. and Im off.
Southwest ensues with the usual boarding chaos and standing. When were finally on I manage to avoid engaging in an airline seating social psychology thesis project and just take the first window seat I see.
CSRs scoot by wearing collared long sleeve shirts and the crew leader has on a suit coat and tie! Am I on the right airline? And were late. Coincidence? Or ties that bind? You be the judge.
Saturnight (experimental word. f its satur-day, why not satur-night?)
Williams Joseph P. Jr. is my Super Shuttle driver. Thats Bob Joe, and perhaps P for Peter, Jr. Very iconic Southern name. Hes a charmer. early-50s with a limp that looks painful. He seems to use talking as a painkiller and hes got quite a smooth flow of the drug at his disposal. Within minutes hes using my name and knows where Im from, where Im going, and what I do. When the next passenger gets on, a late early 40s hefty well-dressed lady named Elisa whos visiting her sick brother, Bob Joe Peter Jr. introduces me and were off with him flirting with his peer. He talks in a flow of repeating phrases and patterns and variable intonations, oh Elisa, now you dont want to go to sixth street. Dont go there; dont want to go there, no sir. Youre in town for the family, a family thing, no hanky panky no hanky panky Elisa now you listening to me? I think I better take you home personally and keep an eye on you. Hahahha, yes sir. She loves it and giggles like a school girl.
Touch down in the city. Its a small city by a river. Gray, trees. We pass the convention center and theres the Four Seasons and the Radisson. Its got a mini-downtown feeling, like a chunk of New York was plopped down in Texas with the streets flowing with sparse 5 am foot traffic. You can cross the streets before the green walking guy, that kind of car traffic. Lots of cranes and construction.
Check in. Off to the opening party at GSD&M Advertising about 15 blocks away. Its one of those ad firms with a lobby that looks like a fancy museum. Three story ceilings, excellent pictures on the wall that could be art photography, but they are of the community service the firm does. This firm feels very meshed into Austins infrastructure. Theres enough food and the whisky is free. This becomes a problem only for those trying to give the 2002 TIM Awards. Whoever planned this event did not time the free drinks thing with the speaking thing, because by the time people want to be heard from small mics mid-span up their spiral staircase, half the people are just drunk enough not to care more about what they are saying then what anyone else, even with a mic, is saying. To this day they might have no idea what a TIM Award is. I know I dont.
I get my first hug from friends I have not seen in a while (hesketh.com) and only rarely in person. We talk and drink, sort of that awkward settling into the vibe thing at a conference. I meet some new folks. Its a casual feeling, not too packed, not many suits at all, Im relaxing quick. Cards are exchanged (Im going to protect the innocent by using domain names only) with names like vanderwal.net, digital-web.com, anitrapavka.com, and designflea.com
Were off to bar #2, an Irish one, for a Digital Web Magazine happy hour. Again, not too packed and friendly people. The bouncer is reading something that looks classic. People are, gasp (choke), smoking at the bar inside. A haven and hell for reformed smokers making them like an ex-junkie given a fresh needle, a hotel room, and 6 months paid vacation. Quitting in California is one thing since big brother is on your side, but a dark wooden bar smelling of whisky in Texas, now thats a challenge.
A quick stop at the So New Media opening at Bouldin Creek Coffee house for chilly back porch readings and then I decide to light out on my own for the Electricity and Me at Gallery Lombardi.
The cab pulls down a side street to a one-story warehouse by some double train tracks. This looks good. Spinning lighted hanging contraptions along a front porch bespeak of things inside arty and technical. The first exhibit is the best. A transparent 5ft screen with butterflies projected on it that are flying about randomly. The pattern is excellent, and seems non-repeating. But theres more. I watch a young woman walk up to the screen and put her arm out and butterflies land on her shadow! One on her hand and a group on her head Theres a waterfall screen too, and it makes the water flow around your shadow. A quick geek inspection reveals a PC, projector and feedback camera on the ceiling for each screen. Excellent. And theres more, like a small Exploratorium gallery full of electronic art. Theres a small Frankenstein looking thing, all kinds small exhibits of robots, holograms, and things lit up. But the butterfly thing stuck. It was one of those examples of technical things that just captivate people in one move, like TV, or chat, or a good Web surf on a fast line. Watch a few seconds of those things over someones shoulders and youre hooked and able to take part with little training.
The gallery is thinning out because the Tang and vodka is long gone. Outside on the long porch people mill about. I talk to couple guys from SXSW about the thousands of audio files theyve put online with some new compression vise called Aug for short, I think it was late.
While were talking small light appears way down on the train tracks. Its a slow moving freight. It passes with that inevitable increase in force that turns into a behemoth of steal and noise. Its a two-engine double-decker, with 2 staked shipping boxes the size of semi-trucks as each car. Three buzzing black dressed folks run to the tracks and make us nervous. They stand very close to the train, and then closer. Then one jumps it and takes a ride, curled up on the side like baby monkey hanging onto her swinging mother. He comes walking back a few moments later from the dark. A bum joins us, her route to the darkness blocked by the train. The train is very long and one of the daredevils is very drunk. Shes too close and a friend slides up beside her to baby-sit. People relax as the visions of her small frame getting sucked up into this lumbering steel monster fade.
Bedtime. A quick walk under a hanging round cage with small balls bouncing around popping from electricity amid a strobe light, reminding me of a lotto disco, and Im hailing a cab 15 blocks from my hotel. Its the same guy who dropped me off and hes not surprised to see me.
Sunday, March 10th.
Panels http://www.sxsw.com/interactive/panels/> start at 10:30, keynotes at 2:15. Very nice. It is as a conference web site said, a party with the propriety to have a conference. The panels are upstairs in the convention center along a hallway with several rooms for couple of hundred folks, and one bigger keynote room. Theres a nice patio. The size is manageable. Food is scarce, but like a lot of places in Austin it seems, beer can be had at anytime. I make a 12:30 panel on trend setting design and listen to folks from netdiver.net, moluv.com, mirrorproject.com, and linkdup.com talk. Its pretty good. The main point here seemed to be that whatever your passion happens to be, you can still get on the Web and make a space for yourself, and in a lot of cases, lots of others like you. Mirrorproject.com is for submitting pictures of yourself in the reflection of something and has 5000+ photos. Talk of tongsville.com surfaces for the first time, but not the last. Tongsville is a pixel art virtual space and will go on to win best of show.
It is also from this panel that the quote of the conference appears. At one point the moderator from Canada says in a thick English-as second-language accent, I mean this Web site was sticky. People just keep on coming and coming and coming. The audience helped her realize her joke. At least I think she understood.
A pattern starts to emerge in the talk and URLs. A pattern of the Web being younger then many of use can see because we are immersed in it. And, after the crash, things seem old and battle weary. But its only been 6.5 years for the Web. Comparisons of TV and Film are heard and I start getting more perspective. I think of what it must have been like to be involved with TV when it started. Seven years in must have felt like decades if you were going full tilt. Many folks probably left the industry before it stopped being live, many more by the time color came to be. I wonder if they look back and think, what in gods name was I thinking! If I knew what was coming Id have kept pushing forward. But perhaps still others look back and think, If I knew what was coming, Id have gotten out quicker!. Parrellels like this are dangerous because each medium is different. Hopefully the Web will not become, a medium, so called because it is neither rare, nor well done. As Fred Allan said about TV. Or has it already? And what I was seeing was the ever present tiny slice of light we still see today amid the flow of garbage on TV?
On another level I start to get twinges of being out of the loop. Maybe Ive seen one too many URL that I didnt know about. This feeling is followed by one of being surrounded by people, most of whom I do not know very well and some of whom might talk about you me one way, and then a different way to your face. It is irrational, but I felt it momentarily around such stars of the Web, like some Hollywood has-been who is coddled by the industry, or on the way out, and never knows it. Later on I bring this up and find out that others, even ones in the limelight, feel some of that and count on their old friends to keep them in the real loop of honesty, like rock stars who keep friends of theirs around they knew them before they made it. And some people speak of the draining nature of being on all the time, instead of with folks they can relax around and be totally themselves and say whatever they want about anybody. This passes quickly. Austin is very friendly and the people at the conference are really amazingly open and cool. I go in search of a wireless zone to post.
On the tradeshow floor I stand,
3:30pm I slide into a panel that had NASA mentioned. I love NASA. They are the quiet uber geeks. This one is called IDSA: Wear Today, Gone Tomorrow – Evolving Technologies for Your Body. I catch the end of a medical technology company that makes a plastic that can be used for fake eyes, parts of damaged skulls, ears, etc. Gruesome before and after photos, but they gave out some placeholder eyeballs which are cool.
NASA was there with a full space suit and a woman who works on them. She did the usual NASA deadpan delivery of really cools stuff. Good to see the agency is still in the PR dark ages. Shed drop lines like This is basically 4 layers of milar and some other layers that have to keep a human being in a comfortable balloon they can move all directions in, that can handle 600 degree changes in temperature and micro meteorites. Or, I worked for two and a half years on gloves. And, We have to make a lot of stuff from scratch. You know, stuff, like space suits with movable joints and gold plated visors. She showed a great video of two spaced suited guys on a vomit comet (a training plane that can mess with gravity by doing dives at high altitude). One was in an Apollo suit and the other in a new suit with three joints just for the hips and much more rigid material everywhere. They were doing endless silly movements to show why the old suits wont work on Mars if we have to do any serious archeology. Very funny to see the Apollo guy get Ive fallen and I cant get upped.
This is the awards night < http://www.sxsw.com/interactive/web_awards/>. The Earls. John Halcyon of cockybastard.com fame is our host. But first a nice outside break with the great folks Ive been adopted by, they are a good crowd of well-known and excellent human beings. I feel a little like a fan swept up into the rock star limo and back stage parties. The warm-up party is one drink ticket (boo) and lots of food. American Spirit is on the deck with smokes sponsoring. Seems strange that big tobacco is sponsoring a young future looking conference of screaming liberals, vegans, veggies, etc. Even stranger is the amount of smokers who are happy about it.
Our host appears to Rocky music in a 100-gallon Nerf cowboy hat and pink fur and plastic. Hes good and gives a summary if the last four years of SxSW. 3 years ago it was change the world. 2 it was to own it. Last year was fuck, fuck, fuck. This year is brother can you Pay Pall a dime.
The awards scream by. I do not know most of the URLs. Later I find out that Im not alone. Tongsville.com wins three. On their first acceptance speech they come up and say, I guess just goes to prove that winners do do drugs.
A blog called dollarshort.org wins and a mousy woman comes up and says, I really dont win things, so now I guess some things might have the change on my blog. The first annual Iron Webmaster award is given with the consensus being three fold. 1. Watching web programming is really boring 2. You cant make a good web page in an hour. 3. There might not be a second event like this.
We get out 1/2 hour into the event of the conference, fray.com night, a wonderful tradition. Its full when we get there and we cant get in, including some speakers. Were stunned. WE cant get in? Us? The digerati? We all decide to hit the urbanpath.com launch party, which promises free drinks and great food. Arriving we find that the food is gone and the drinks are one free drink ticket for beer, wine and well drinks only. We all agree that this site will never make it with a launch party like this and repair up to a loft in the pseudo dive bar. The loft quickly becomes a fray blocked digerati node of lounging and drinking.
By midnight were sauced and head for the Omni bar. The Omni hotel is in one half a new skyscraper that has a bar on the ground floor between the other half with a roof some 30 stories over the two halves. Theres no music so the talking is good amid an incredible airy feeling from the amount of airspace above your head. And yet youre inside and if you scream it echoes.
Evan from blogger.com fame and I end up at the bar just in time for the arrival of a rouge social unit. Shes a well-dressed woman in her late 40s, plump, jewelried, perfumed, and trailed by several guys. She gravitates to Evan and I and grabs our arms as she launches into the story of her childhood. She says she was a gymnast, very flexible. She was thin then and just out of training in how to be a good wife from her Indian grandmother. This did not involve cleaning, but instead training on Karmic blowjobs using vegetables with a final exam on the village idiot. Ok. We order another drink to recover and she moves on with her village idiots in tow. Oh, and she knows Bono, hes charming.
Steve and Heather Champeon (hesketh.com) and I stumble home. I love seeing these two. They are a grounding force from North Carolina and Steve is from Maine so we always bond over talk of trees and long relaxing silences.
Monday, March 11th.
Ouch. Water. Must find café. Wait accessing Fray night was at a café. Drag self to The Hideout, proud members of the independent-laptop-friendly-coffee-house-salon type place.
Drug store stop on the way for some light allergy meds. Turns out Austin is very high on southwestern allergy content. The daunting wall of allergy meds is well daunting. I am joined by a woman who is also daunted. We chat. She leaves and says, Well, Im sure Ill see you again. I was taken back. Why would she see me again? Was she going to stalk me? Or maybe she was just being friendly?
Theres a slow line at the Hideout cafe. It gives me plenty of time for one to see exactly why the line I slow. I do some calming and breathing exercises to handle it, but I fail and slip quickly into a silent consulting lecture to the owner on his needs for workplace efficiency modifications when people are desperately trying to give their money away for flavored water.
Theres an attractive young couple behind me, sort of college bohemian. To my surprise the guy says Hi and introduces himself. Im suspicious. The woman follows suit. I wonder if they are a tag team Amway sales force? And raise me shields. We talk. They welcome me to Austin and ask about the conference. Hes a geek in college; she works in a charter school like me. Turns out they were just being friendly. Interesting. I drop my shields and want to move next door to them.
In the halls of the conference I search for a wireless signal. There are Mac Titanium PowerBooks everywhere and few PC laptops. Eventually I find an area with a solid signal and log-in. A panel ends, the hall fills up, and Im about to sit for the next one when a group of folks I know appear and were off to the Ironworks BBQ lunch place on a little river walking distance away. Its a classic picnic table meat place. You can get your meat on paper, or with beans and potatoes. They have soda in class bottles, including Sunkist orange soda. Theres two wood stoves working and a line about 12 ft up on a wall that says Flood line 1935. I have beef meat; its so slow cooked it crumbles and is gristle/fat blob free.
We return in time for Simon Assaad and David Carsons keynote lead by Heather Gold. These guys are great. They do heavy.com and tell the story of their financial maneuvers in building their company. Very Hollywood telling one person youve got a meeting with their competition on Wednesday so they book you on Tuesday. Then calling the one you said you had a meeting with, but didnt and telling them about the Tuesday meeting which makes them book you on Monday. Ones in a suit, the other black with spiked hair. They freely admit it is because while they both do a lot of creative and financial, theyve found it helps to split up their personalities for meetings and PR so both suits and artists have someone they feel comfortable talking too.
Next up is a panel on tools for open source online community and collaboration tools with folks from, Slashcode, GeekAustin, LiveJournal.com, Slashdot.com, and swinney.org. Some great talk about trolls, rights, and security ensues.
The day ends and we repair to the bar of PF Changes by 5pm. A couple of adapativepath.com guys and I talk and hydrate. For the second time at the conference the subject of film comes up and its relationship to the Web. This time we talk about the time flow in Citizen Kane and a vestige of Wells radio days with lines like Look over here by the window which I never realized were silly in a film where the person saying it is sitting by a window.
Most folks head off for 20X2, a series of 20 people doing 2-minute readings. I decide to go over the Vox Nox readings where Derek is reading from the Design for Community book with other authors. Its a small gathering. The authors range all over the map, from academic threads that are hard to follow with conference daze, to poets and Dereks great opening story from the book about his first online community in high school using notes in a desk with an unknown person in another class. A surprise author shows up. I didnt get his name, but folks said he was pretty successful. He read from a work in progress. I was amazed at his style of reading. He was clearly a pro. He changed his voice for characters just enough to make it almost media and thus different then reading it silently to yourself. Some authors seem to read deadpan, which always causes me to ask myself why we dont just all sit together and read it, then talk about it. And this guy has amazing narrative flow. If you closed your eyes and didnt listen to the words too much you could still tell if it was an action scene, or an introspective time etc. by the rhythm of the words.
Then were all off to the EFF party, a sangria event at a bar on South Congress over the river. Its on a long street with dive bars every once in a while and some shops. Its out of the city about a dozen blocks. While in the middle of schmoozing Steve C. grabs my arm and say, Come with me and were walking down the street with me asking a lot of questions because I dont want to leave the party yet. Turns out were just going down the street a block to a little hotel which shall remain nameless, so I have a chance of staying their next year.
Walking in one notices the latticework maze that slows you down. Walking under a Japanese like walk way I suddenly feel like someone spiked my sangria with acid. Its quite. Fine gravel is under my feet. Im on a walkway with trees. I see a patio with flames of fire through more latticework. Theres ferns, and trimmed bushes, the sound of fountains and shadows of two story buildings in some strange Asian/northern Californian/Santa Fe style. We walk to the patio. Tables, a fire, slow cool music. People chatting. The front desk is also the bar, wine and beer with only edemami and apples for munchies. Suite 16 is having a little social, but we stay on the patio. Its a very calming place and totally out of the vibe of the street it is on, like a secret zone with an invisible shield of sanity. The bathroom as tea candles. The Portuguese wine is cheap and good and comes in a tough little cup, which I like. They have Flat Tire beer as well. Very nice. 1:30 am comes quickly and I decide to crash early with most of the crowd.
Tuesday, March 12th.
Hide out for coffee. Theres a huge line for tickets, the music people must be coming to town. Speaking of people in town, I finally ask around about all the supposed 60,000 college students at UT. Turns out they are on Spring Break. Very nice planning, no wonder the bars have been so pleasantly easy to get into.
I manage to catch Josh Davis panel on painting the digital canvas. Hes hot and a great presenter of his Flash work. Its called math as a friend of mine says later. He gets Flash to paint for him, and hes a trained artist, so the combo works. He talks a lot about using a framework that tells Flash what to do over and over again, with slightly different results. To get a print of his work, youd need to do a screen grab.
This framework thing gets me thinking about the panel coming up that Im on. Ive always been fascinated by the idea of frameworks within which to be creative. While thinking outside the box seems to be in vogue, I actually like to think within the box too, and I think it has a long wonderful history of proving very creative for others as well. My two favorite examples are script writing and painting. Painters literally work within a box the canvas. They dont sit there spending hours deciding what shape their canvas will be, its just a rectangle and the work lies in what to fill it with. Script writing has a ridged format, 90 to 110 pages, Courier font, specific margins, conventions, use of capitals, etc. The challenge is the story and characters.
But what if you port this over to online community I think as Josh is talking about this new art? Well, good communities seem to have very clearly defined frameworks within which people freely communicate. The framework is a purpose of the community, the special interest it centers around, the tone it sets, the technology needed, rules, etc.
And further, just like Johns work is created by the application and constantly changes, but within the same motif, online communities are constantly changing the content, but the motif is steady if the framework is strong. So, if you take a sample of say the last 20 posts of a community it is like a painting of information from you framework. Ha! Or maybe Im just spinning from days of SXSWs pace
2pm and Derek takes me and the two other panelists (John Styn of citizenx.com and Matthew Haughey of metafilter.com)out to lunch. Our panel is to discuss lessons learned when the users strike back. Its the last session of the conference and were all dazed and overloaded. Im concerned that the room will be empty. But we rally and have a great warm-up and get positive. John and Matt are smart and we all get ideas from each other.
The room fills up. We have an overhead they surf to the persons site who is talking. For me this is the NoEnd.org site. Confusing and static since NoEnd is closed, small, and not Web based. But apparently we cast a long shadow and as a community have shared what weve learned well.
Derek is a consummate moderator. We each tell stories of users striking back. John tells of learning of Hottubbing and doing that to citizenx.com when it was at 140,000 users. Hes down significantly after rebooting and has limited the show your tits to sections of the site. Hes also implemented taxes and the users not only dont mind, but wanted to pay. I think its $5 a month. Matt gets the biggest applause when he tells us of his technique of dealing with trolls. He makes them invisible to everyone but themselves! We converge on the idea of using a core, or sponsors to sponsor new members so you can go to the sponsor if trouble starts and they will know the person better. This avoids misunderstandings and saves moderators time. I tell the story of NoEnd after 911 and our first attempt at a 7 day break. After polling the list people seemed generally positive about it, but wishing it hadnt gotten to that stage. Also, some said we were still a little wounded. I told of how we discovered that part of the problem was core member slacking and not reading the list enough. Derek polls the room and finds out that almost everybody is part of a community, but only 4 make their living at it. We end with QA with Josh Davis sparking things up with some great questions. After, we make it across the hall the patio for some air and to let is all sink it. Were done. Thats it. A few more parties, ending at Bruce Sterlings.
After dinner out with panel and company we all head for the adaptivepath.com one-year birthday party. On the way I hook up with Issy, a second cousin I have not scene for 26 years, since that trip to snowbird central in Florida. My mother had called my cell phone to hook us up as Issy is a local now, a transplanted East Coast Jew in Texas, or as they say here, I dont live in Texas, I live in Austin. Issy comes with me to the party. Shes in her 40s and works at a non-profit. We talk amid the mix. She is curious about what sort of alien ship and landing party Ive arrived with, being as she is not a techie. She writes down a lot of URLs as I talk. Timing in the universe being what it is, my father calls my cell right after she asks about him. They talk briefly. He used to make eggplant lasagna with her father random.
We part. I share cab to Bruces party. Bruce Sterling that is. The writer. He has a party on the last night every year. At his keynote he passed out directions to the crowd. His house is in a nice older part of town with old lawns and big old trees in the yard. Hes got a wonderful old home with a huge porch and lots of wood. We walk up. The porch is full, but not crowded. Sure enough hes opened up his house, literally. I mean you can walk into his office and browse books and theres an email list on his iMac if you want to leave your email. I see a pile of Air University Journals from Maxwell Air Force base. Theres only a boom box on the floor with low music, and strange physics stuff on a normal TV. The back porch is also open so you can walk through his house and out the other side. The kitchen has some drinks, food and coffee, but nothing outrageous, just a good house party. Theres a couple of contraptions there too that Bruce shows off. One is a balancing chime that works off a candle; the other is a candle driven mini-still. Someone has balanced two forks on two toothpicks at right angles and a group is standing around discussing the physics of the situation.
Its really quite amazing at first, or unusual, for a man of his position to open up his life to a sort of public. Then I start to think, by opening up like that, with no rules, or signing of things, or security (that I could see) he is counting on us, his loyal fans, as his protectors. If we saw someone stealing or doing something stupid, I think the crowd would want to take care of it before anybody knew, because it would be such an uncool thing to do, and so we could all come back next year.
Bruce is wandering around a lot. His kids are too. Hes easy to talk to, but distracted being the host. Later in the night I find myself with some my pose at Bruces liquor cabinet getting a tour and taste from him. Theres coffee flavored tequila, Croatian moonshine, etc. We do some shots. Later, wafting out onto the sprawling southern wrap around porch, I find packs of Dunhill Reds on tables with matches. Apparently theyre there as party favors. Very cool.
We settle in for a chatting kind of low-key house party that just puts the joy back in your heart. No trouble, no fights, no drunks, but few sobers. Very southern laid back I think. I meet some great people, like two CS professors from UT who insist all popular OSs Suck! and something about Xerox Parc. Theres a foreign busty blond programmer, the couple from somewhere in Asia, and that older guy in a tee shirt in the kitchen who seemed to know everybody. People swing and neck in a hammock. Cabs come and go. There are leaves on the lawn. I dont want to ever leave. But I do when most of the rest of the crowd.
We make it in time for the last drink at the Omni, like we need it. Its quiet. I walk home again with the Champeons. We part on the 7th floor of the Radisson. My cab driver the next morning is French New Orleans. The airport is sane. On plane I sit next to a 40s something father of two teens on the plane. Hes the single most calm, happy, father Ive met in ages. Just a middle-aged guy with a gut and thinning hair and no problems with that. Turns out he used to work at Apple in the 1980s to the early 1990s. Now hes at an educational software company. All in sales. He had some great stories. His kids were traveling with him on business so they could bum around San Diego. They were sitting scattered all over the plane. He kept letting them borrow his iPod. The way he interacted with his kids was so natural, like theyd all made it though the tough years of childhood and now he was just one of them, and treated them like adults, and they returned respect and did their own thing. He would smile every time he talked to them, and make jokes or snicker. This guy had a mellow sense of humor that was just relaxing. Turned out he worked totally at home and traveled about half the week. He had a pool and swam at lunch. He worked until about 3 after waking up early to get the kids to school. His wife was a graphic designer. He told of some hard times, and Austin getting too crowded. Hes thinking of moving to Colorado he said, and the kids are into it too. He seemed like the jovial chief of a wonderful small tribe of good folks doing their thing, like the big tribe I was just part of.
“SXSW is a gathering of the tribes. It is a place where folks truly committed to the web as a creative medium meet once a year to hook up and hang out while enjoying the music, cuisine, and chaos of Austin, a town like no other. SXSW is something between Woodstock and Spring Break, with a conference thrown in for the sake of propriety.” Quote from the SXSW site by Jeffrey Zeldman, www.zeldman.com 2002 SXSW Interactive Panelist.